Deep breath innnnnn, here it goes.
Years ago, I completely pushed being an empath away. Even though I grew up with a highly intuitive mother (which allowed for me to be open enough to receive), I resisted the energetic sensitivities I was feeling, and now I’m at a point in my journey where I’m trying to figure out why. I suppose it was in an effort to protect myself from how overwhelming it felt and how painful it could potentially be to fully acknowledge the truths I was picking up on. Yep. Actually, that’s exactly why I pushed against it; I was scared. Hey, we’re all just humans and we’re all afraid of something. And when it comes to a matter like this, of course fear was attached. The meaning brought to the surface was just too much to accept emotionally. Deny! Deny! Pew, pew, pew!!! I shot down those feelings as if my life depended on it. We live in a society that mocks spiritual connectivity like this. Why WOULDN’T I have been scared to share that I’m ‘feeling energy?’ People would have thought I was nuts! Hell, some of you reading this right now might think that (however, the difference between then and now is that I sincerely don’t give a damn what anyone “thinks” of it. I own that sh*t loud and proud).
The point is that, despite my greatest attempts, the feeling never went away. We can try to hide, but we can’t ever truly bury our nature. That was it. Once I figured out that it was my nature that I had been denying, I cried. ‘Gone With The Wind’ style. A lot. I cried because it hurt so much more for me to know that I had downplayed who I was; who I am. But after my tear ducts had nothing else left to give, I felt liberated in knowing that a big part of my work as a human being is to understand which characteristics of being an empath relate to me and learn how to communicate about them.
This has been one of the most important realizations of my life. It is and will continue to be an ongoing process. None of it is easy, and I’m still not great at it, but it just feels so much better to feel it through this way and I encourage everyone I know – empath or not – to embrace your nature, if you aren’t already. The world needs beautiful you.
Think you're an empath? Check out this article and see if any light bulbs turn on: http://themindunleashed.com/2013/10/30-traits-of-empath.html